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[sexytechmage]

So it's a few years on.

This place has pretty much closed down. I'm still writing loads of stuff elsewhere (LJ, my own off-line diary, freeism.org), I'm still hating evil females.

Well... I don't call them evil anymore, I call them "selfish and sadistic" It helps to be accurate.

Anyhow...

I've re-read conversations... I can see how I did mis-handle this place. I mean it wasn't terrible mishandling. But... I could have done better. I do want to apologise to the list members that I was acting dictatorial to.

It's very hard to get these sort of things right. Especially when you are younger.

I guess I was quite frustrated that people didn't seem to "Get it". Perhaps I didn't realise how much of what I said that they got, simply because they couldn't express themselves as well as I did, or just expressed themselves differently.

There was definitely a communication problem, in which I could have done a better job.

It's like I had this grand vision, of a new and different kind of people turning up, who could all see the truth. And it never happened. They didn't turn up. Some interesting people turned up, but none seemed to get enough of the truth, as much as they could easily get.

Especially the more important parts, like hating women for being evil for having disfigured males into making us be cavemanly. I mean... I only proved it using logic, I proved it for god's sake! Yet no one seemed to get in on this. It didn't seem to matter to anyone like it did to me. I was very frustrated with that.

I wanted a whole culture of people based around these sort of ideas, all who contributed to those sort of theories and upheld them, lived by them, dreamed by them. Tried to do their best to undo the damage the evil women have done to our DNA.

But it didn't seem to matter to my male posters. And I always had this feeling that some people were being negative. I mean... I wanted this place to be about good hate, about hating because you are better and do everything wonderful and good. Like a genius inventor or artist who creates wonders, that are true wonders, and still hates the nasty people.

It seemed too many people just were unacheiving in life due to a not positive attitude, saying "oh poor me I'm fucked I'll never get out of this shit, oh well at least I can try to drag people down with me".

AARRGH! That is just so not what I was about. I was about inspiring to a higher way of being. And yet people just didn't seem to get it.

Or more "positive" people would come on... but not be hateful. Just blind themselves to the truth. People like Davee or some of the other posters. It was so boring. What's the fun if we are going to be all civil to evil females?

Why couldn't I have genius intense positive creative productive people who are full of hate? People who make things better for the good and destroy the bad without destroying any good? Perfect people, like that.

That's what I wanted! And yet, they didn't come. Except me.

Well... I've learnt to accept that the world is the way it is. There is no denying it. Earth is impoverished in quality of souls. Better souls must be living elsewere on other planets. Sadly, I'm separated off from my own kind, and forced to live amoungst the humans.

I can get frustrated all I like... just being frustrated won't change the demographics of this crappy planet, only taking action will.

So... yeah, basically I want to apologise for my dictatorial ways, especially to the guys who were hating on women in ways that I didn't think were right, for mishandling things.

And explain that I was frustrated with the kinds of people turning up despite that I was clearly putting up signs that I wanted a different kind turning up. It was like putting up a sign saying "People with X, and Y please come here"...

and instead I got people with "X, -Y, Z". They had the opposite in two senses (-Y instead of Y, and Z instead of zero) and... ARgH!! That's not who I asked for.

But then I suppose I could put my head in the gutter and ask to speak to dolphins, it won't happen. Earth is the gutter of the Universe. I can ask for all I want... the only way I could get the kind of posters I wanted, would be for an alien force to come to Earth. I just have to accept that I am superior, at least to humans, and it's not my fault that I live on this planet instead of a better one.
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