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sexytechmage · Your host Joined: 17 Dec 2003 Posts: 1969

It's about time that I make a list of stupid comments that females have given me about my looks.

Actually, today I don't even look like I did when they gave me those comments. I still look youngish but not as sparkling bright as I used to. It's all because of a limit to freedom, as I got more earning power and speaking power, my life energy was decreased in order to keep my freedom under this limit. I didn't decrease my life energy, something else did, but what it is that is enforcing this limit I don't know. I just wish it would go away, even if it would mean all our stereotypes of people would become invalidated.

Anyhow, heres a list:

My first girlfriend: "You are even prettier than I am!" (said in surprise as if it wasn't something she was expecting)

Some stupid fat slut I fucked once (well actually a few times): "I'm jealous of your looks." (To which I replied to her, "but I got a caveman skull and you don't? if you looked like me you'd have a caveman skull too?" I think what she meant was that she wanted the little refinement I had in my features left, NOT the cavemanlyness, she'd rather I keep my skull and look even more brutish and plain, and just steal whatever refinement I still had left.)

The same fat slut: "You could be a model, but I shouldn't have told you that because then you might think like you are really good or something."

Some pervy older chinese "auntie" I used to play with: "Theo you need to dress down, you can't go out looking prettier than your prey!" (no she wasn't my real aunt, just a bit older, I just sort of played with her and chatted and went clubbing but she always pushed me into hooking up with other girls right in front of her, it was sweet like that. She said she knew I was too good for her. I mostly liked her cos she totally rocked at dancing. She was one of the best dancers I've seen.)

Some girl I snogged at Slimelight (london goth club): "The reason I didn't call you was because I was scared because I thought you were a girl." (and yes I don't have tits, I was bare chested that night, I have a deep voice, I'm tall, I have a caveman skull, she must have felt the shave on my face as she was kissing me, and I don't have big hips even. How stupid is she???)

Some scary but strangely attractive american girl who asked to take naked pictures of me in a forest, she wanted me to be some kind of fairy or something: "You are too pretty to be a boy!". (Man that comment annoyed me.)

Oh some guy (with his own band) at an after-party, after Slimelight: "You are the only person I know who looks younger after a night out." (Well it was because I decided that for the whole night I'd be casting "youth magic" on me, to make me younger. I actually danced while doing the magic, it was great, it even improved my dancing as I had so much more energy and emotion to my dance. You just need to put a huge amount of energy into it, as long as you can feel the energy crawling under your skin like living electricity or something, its working. Thats the whole reason I looked young and good for so long, because of the magic I did on myself everyday.)

And those are just the most wierd comments. That's not the usual ones I used to get like I should be a model or I'm like her angel or I'm gorgeous or always trying to tell me how beautiful I am. I mean.... loads of guys get told they are good looking when I actually think they aren't, although not so many get frequently told they should be a model.

Well it's too late for that now, I'm 27, and I was 25 and younger back then when I was hearing those wierd gender based comments.

Besides its better this way, seeing as I developed my brain power, brains always last longer than looks. If it weren't for this artificial limit to freedom that I did not choose and I'm fighting against, I'd be able to keep both young and power for as long as I like, not have to lose one as I gain the other.

Basically, this is just me running up against the "feminine" stereotype. Because I was a boyish young and refined looking tall adult very sexual human, they processed that look and thought "FEMININE!" How ridiculous is that??

To humans, feminine doesn't mean having tits or big hips or whatever. It just means looking young and refined while being adult and sexual.

So your sexual but brutish and not boyish looking "manly man" isn't considered feminine, because he isn't refined or young looking even if he is tall.

A proper "boy child", the kind we all were (except the female readers) for some time of our lives, isn't considered feminine, because he's small and not sexual or adult.

So it seems, only females are allwoed to be adults that look young and refined and be sexual at the same time??? Or else a guy doing the same is called "feminine"???? How fucked up and unfair is that?

I looked young, and I was trying to be young, and doing magic to acheive this. Whether or not you believe in magic, it seemed to have worked, because people made those comments about me, and still do when I show them the photos of me back then when I was in my early twenties. I never ever ever ever ever did a spell to make me feminine, and everyday for years did spells to make me young... (and it did work because people thought I was 6 years younger than my age), and yet people thought I was feminine just because I happened to be adult tall and sexual and try to keep some refinement, while still being young...

How stupid.

And evil.
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snorri · Veteran Joined: 02 May 2004 Posts: 1777

I wish I could use magic. :(

sexytechmage · Your host Joined: 17 Dec 2003 Posts: 1969